Prabhu Deva - chikku bukku

Made it

This is a post for all those times that i couldn't write. It was for all the times that i had an idea and i just let it slip away because i was too lazy. I am not a modest animal, i think i am beyond the rest i think i am unique. It is this quality which sets me apart from almost every one. Yet this is the quality which is crying of mediocrity from every single pore.

Though i want to be special, shouting out for some unique quality, i know i am just about as average as everyone else. The searching quality in me is not new, i search for that je ne se qua, just like every other being.

Though life is said to be easy, it bites you in the ass to remind you that it is not. The corollary to which, is that each time you take life to seriously it beckons you to its lighter side.

So is it balance that we are all looking for, the elusive state of being between seriousness and callousness, stupid unhindered actions to carefully thought out machinations.

Is the search of such a balance our quest in life.

All i know is that i want to write, i want to talk to the world, i want to leave something for people to read, to experience, to ponder over - to love.

I can't think of a more glorious way to do it than to write - to put to the test that which is my calling. The job of a story teller, the one who writes fables, histories, biographies, fiction and states facts. Volumes of two score, to parchment of dirt. Anything consequential and yet absolutely worthless.

I set out to write something , i believe i achieved what i set out to do. Was it short? Did it say what i wanted to?

I do not stop to ask such questions. I answer to a higher cause - that which still remains elusive.

Silent Lucidity - Chungking Express

We watch movies on a regular basis, two maybe three a month. If you are any where close to a movie buff you would watch about 4 - 5 a week. But if you are anyone like me you would go on to watch anywhere close to 7 - 8 in a week. Don't ask me how we accomplish this feat, i am at a loss myself. What is the point of establishing this fact?....oh yes because of the enormous library of movies it becomes very difficult to actually get your hands on something which just blows you out of your seat. After a certain point you have already seen it, interpreted in a certain way, shown in a particular way and nothing really affects you in the same way as you were before. You start losing hope and then you are just drinking the same wine in a new bottle.

Every so often, not regularly you actually come across something worth while. Something that you are compelled to share with the world, something that jumps up at you and restores your faith in the life long pursuit of movies. For me it was Chungking Express.

I am a big fan of Cantonese movies, i started with the classics of Jackie Chan, Bruce Lee, Jet Li then i was a big fan of the gangster movies Chow Yun Fat, John Woo, Andy Lau but only recently did i realise that there is a world beyond these movies, movies about every day people, every day emotions. I was introduced to Wong Kar Wai and Tony Leung - subliminal is the only word i can think of. There are scripts, there are actors, there are directors and there is cinematography and then there is treatment. Treatment of the smallest most mundane of things can be so precious, its only when you see it do you believe it. Pineapple in a burger sounds yuck right? but if done right it can be heavenly. You try it and if you don't have it, you will ruin some good ingredients.

Chungking Express is exactly that, treatment of human emotions, depicted beautifully by four fantastic actors. Their story is not extraordinary, its not legendary and most definitely not historic. You immediately connect with the movie because it is either a story of your life or somebody that you know of.

There is an obvious down side to this, you have tasted glorious taste of a fabulous dish, now...where do you go to get some more. Sorry, you have to wade through mountains of movies again and just when you think you have lost all hope.......BOOM - Silent Lucidity